Monday, July 5, 2010

Wondering if

I am so inspired by the many artists I meet through this strange doorway into the world. I'm also feeling like a small child who admires all the older children who can do so much more than me and so much better. And wonder will I ever grow up. Beautiful paintings. Interestingly curious paintings. Soft comforting paintings and disturbingly beautiful paintings. I feel insignificant but I am a tenacious person with many years of practicing tenacity so I will keep painting.

I distract myself with domestic chores where I feel competent. I love an ordered house where I can find what I want quickly. I hate having to look for something longer than the time it takes to use it. My mind feels less cluttered and I can think leisurely or deliberately. I'm almost there and it feels good. My environment has suffered as I recovered from various medical challenges and my ability to get things done is a sign I am healthy and physically capable again. I am excited that I will have more energy to create and become more skillful at making art. I will find my voice. I am determined. Thank you all for sharing your work and yourselves.

6 comments:

  1. Thank you for sharing yourself and your art with me. Keeping intouch with someone from y homeland makes me feel wonderful and has an extra touch.

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  2. Thank you Melanie! It is wonderful!

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  3. hi Elizabeth ... you are serious about painting and you seriously want to learn and discover more ... that instantly puts in company with Leonardo, Vincent and Picasso ... think on that, a sister to Leonardo, not on what you feel you can't do yet ... i love your work ... look at the door down there - really great stuff, strong stuff ... i believe in you, so the least you can do is believe in yourself, lol ... and i'm sure your doing just fine in your studies

    but, yes, i know, those negative voices in our heads ... we all have them ... that is just one of the reasons why it takes courage to paint ... so, let's all encourage one another and just keep painting and see how dem voices like that!

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  4. Thank you Harry for your kind words of encouragement. It is difficult at 60 years old to be a beginner at something you really want to excel. I like that image "a sister to Leonardo" and I'll think of it when facing the big empty canvas.

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  5. hey Elizabeth i once heard a story (true or not i'm not sure) that a person who has earned a black belt in their martial art wears this each time s/he practises. The black belt frays over time and under the black threads is white material and this evntually shows through and the learning begins again as the master at a great age becomes a learner again. i love this concept as it means we continue to learn and it teaches us to be humble

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  6. Thank you Ranina for visiting and sharing this lovely story. It demonstrates how knowledge is infinite and so is our learning.
    I love your paintings. My favourite at the moment is your study of the shoes. SO simple but so interesting.

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